Jay-Z

I am a son of a successful business man that has always supported me through everything and cares about the smallest things. I have laughed with this man and cried with him. From him I have learned Love. 

My mother has been my best friend and always has been there for me. She is my biggest cheer leader. I have seen her stand tall when others have fallen. From this I have learned Strength and Persistence. 

I have grown up playing sports and I will not have anyone tell me that sports is just a game. It has molded me to the man I am. 

I had a verbally abusive coach that told me I would never amount to anything.. ever. From this I have learned Confidence. 

I won 3 Championship tittles in a row. From this I learned Victory. 

I went 13-0 and lost in the State Championship. From this I learned Failure. 

I lost a friend from suicide. From this I learned to live.

I have a friend that got cheated on by his Wife. From this I learned Loyalty. 

I had someone Record a private phone conversation and show it to people. From this I learned Trust. 

I Once was in love with a girl. Then she made out with my best friend. From this I learned wrong doing. 

I am in Love with a girl. From this I have learned endearment. 

I have Punched a kid in the jaw. I have learned that fighting isn't worth it. 

I have been Lied to. From this i am trying to learn forgiveness. 

I have exceeded my expectations in life. from this I have learned potential. 

Shawn Carter was a Coke dealer in Maryland and now he runs NYC I chose him because it shows that insane work ethic can get you anywhere. I find this to be true. Even though Me and Jay-Z have completely different lives we have a couple things in common. We both run our worlds not THE world but our worlds. In closing I thank all the people who have read my blog. I hope you continue to read. This is Shawn carter.

 a.k.a. Britton Bettridge. 

Father of my dad.

To Grandpa 

Thank you for keeping the news paper clippings and raising my dad the way he is. I tend to look up to you both. How are you doing living alone? I can see how you are at the family parties and I want to cry for you man. You are such a great guy about to go and meet the greatest of them all. How soon are you thinking? Grandma has been gone about 6 years now and I don’t know if i could go 6 years without the love of my life. leaving me alone and quiet. What were you like when you were my age? I know for a fact you did somethings that you have laughed about while you were alone sitting in that old recliner. Man I love you. I think you chose the best spot for your final resting place. The pond is beautiful and I want to take a girl there. Can we come over for the afternoon and keep you company? We might go on the pond on the row boat for a little bit. Is it weird to see your friends go? how about me? am I representing your name well enough? The way you smiled when you talked about me makes the bad times worth it. Is my dad your favorite? I need to ask you more questions in person. Love you man. Be over soon. 

living through technicolor.

I

I wonder if you are sick of this yet?

You said that we think the same and i wonder if we really do. 

Your secret thoughts spend too many moments in mine. 

My love it is scary. 

Am i suffocating you? Does your fire need air? 

I don’t know.

I don’t want to keep asking. 

You say you are predictable. I can’t even read your writing how can I read your emotion? 

Your brain is a lock that I can’t even cut off. 

Give me the code babe. 

Am i over thinking this? 

Maybe it is the past. Maybe because I have never loved like this. 

I can’t imagine loving more than I do right now. 

I have to yell at myself to stop. 

I hope Walt Disney was right. 

Is this too good to be true? 

Just write me a letter letting me know and I will sign the restraining order if that is what you want. 

If we think the same. Life is going to be wait for it.

Grand. Just grand my love 

13-1

Failure haunts me like death. 

I would rather be dead than to have this feeling that I do right now. 

Alone. Scared. Wet. 

I admit defeat.

Emotion this strong can’t possibly be held in for too long.

The tears are just precipitation from which the bottle my emotions were held in. 

This is a broken record.

This is a broken record. 

It was all too good. 

I am in love.

Undefeated?

Happy?

Happy?

I am in love.

The best group of men assembled.

My body worn down from the exhaustion I put into this game. 

I put my heart into this shit. 

This is a broken record. 

My heart consists of two things. 

The person I love and this game.

This is a broken record. 

The rings were made. 

The rings were made. 

I was going to tell the girl of my dreams I was madly in love with her. 

Ms. I still am madly in love with you. 

It just would have made our story so much better. 

This is a broken record.

For it is my fault in the end. 

Every Movie has a tragedy. 

I made this game a show Premiering every Friday night starting at 7.

It is my fault for telling everyone to get their popcorn ready. 

Because in my mind we were in Hollywood 

Reality strikes as easy as a toothpick snapping. 

The storyline was too damn good. 

We all knew that. 

I would rather be forgotten than to be the bad example. 

it's late. It is late.

My Hearts biggest fear is you. 

You play me so well its like the sound of a tin can hitting the concrete. babe. you were born to break my heart. I hope you change that. I hope everything you say to me is true and you don't just feel bad for me. 

My Heart cant take the blood pressure from you sitting in front of my face. me looking for what you are and you looking through me. Take my beating heart out my chest already. dissect it. You don't need anything from me no map. love, you know my heart more than anyone else in the history of time.Tik Toc. Its like you hand crafted my blood. All my heart does is pump and feel your love. If you are going to kill me. IF you are going to kill me. kill me slow. I want my last seconds. looking at you slowly. the way I want. The way I want! Hopping that if i look at you hard enough then you will crave me. My taste is addicting dear. and I will die with you forever. Kill my heart dear. Kill it slow. *eyes closed 

Kill it slow. 

Funeral

Now that I am dead, I would like to discuss my funeral. 

First and for most I want Chick fil a and a open bar.. Yeah everyone will order virgin but I want alcohol. Oh and I want the Dallas cowboys cheer leaders. 

I want Frank Sinatra singing live. 

Mom and Dad should cover the cost if not them I am sure my boss will cover the rest.. if you do have extra money I want the chip n dales to show up. yes already oiled ready to go. (hey someone has to keep the girls company while I am gone) 

I will need a mix of laughing and crying I will go with 75\20. I was never good at math anyways. Location doesn't matter too much but the State Capital should do the trick. All around my ranking will be on massive banners around the Capital. they go as follows: 

Nicest People

1.Grandma 

2.Talmage Gunther 

3.Jon Dodge 

4.Mr.Rodgers 

5.The hatch twins 

Biggest Jerks 

1. David Flake 
2. David Flake 
3. Parker Richards 
4. Ben Griffins brother 
5. TBD

Most fun

1.Makenna Pliler 

2.Mike Mower after a big win 

3.Natile Pliler 

4.Mccall Andrus 

5.Jon Christianson 

Greatest witnesses.

Freeze world series 

Harleen in the end zone 

Patriots winning the 2015 supper bowl 

Kissing K#$%^ P(*&^$ Oh. My. Gosh.

Opras giving away 100s of cars.. That ladie is awesome. 

Largest Regrets

Not yelling at Thayne Harrison 

My last girl friend 

Me paying $400 for a Xbox from my brother 

Not being at operas give away 

People i was sure would be dead before me

1.Obama

2.My dog 

3.Ozzy Osborn 

4.Rhonda Bromly 

5.Gary Dunn 

Best insult.

“Why do you sound like a 12 year old calling from your basement?” 

Best class presidents 

1.Bailey Frampton 

2.Jake Irving 

3.Ben Clark 

4.Jayden Crowler 

Things I will miss.

1.Family

2.Playing football 

3.Frank Jackson

4.jack Johnson on a rainy day

Things I won’t do

Find Paris 

Marry 

Have Sexs 

Sky dive 

Explore the world 

Most athletic people I have met. 

1.Tyson Doman 

2.Frank Jackson 

3.Tyler Kap 

4.Mckelle Cahoon 

5.Talmage Gunther 

6.

7.

8.lyle Mangum in his prime 

What I learned 

1.Fastest sprinter is the slowest walker

2.Kony 2012 was Bull ****

3.If there are 100 people crying at your after dinner speech you can only focus on the one asleep. 

02-11-14

Did you look up the instructions how to make a noose? or did your dad teach you how to tie it? 

I wonder how long your blond hair is. 

Is your long board still in the same place? 

are your hands okay from touching the pavement. 

Were the cops just complete dicks? 

Was the barn silent? 

Did you break your neck or did you hang? Was it more painful then you were thinking? 

I am saying sorry for asking so many questions because that is the polite thing to do. 

Damn it Hunter leave a note at least. 

Help your parents out. 

How does your brothers feel?

How selfish. 

Your emotion had to be over flowing. 

Brother let me love you. 

I love you. 

I love you.

I love you. 

It doesn't mean much now. 

How selfish am I. 

How selfish am I not to tell you. 

You Love me don’t you? 

I see your spirit. 

You gave us life. 

You gave us happiness.

You gave us Love. 

I am sorry no one showed you the same.

Only you can hurt us the way you did. 

Only your brain can make you that depressed. 

You may have ended your life.

You may have started mine.

Till we meet again Brother.