d43me aka rachel bridges

dear d43me 

I found that your style is different than mine and I like different. 

I put a poem together of quotes from your blog that I could connect with.

i found salvation at three am

 & i got to thinking, i don't know who i am, & i don't know what i want to be when i grow up, but i know who i want to be right now.

the honest truth

i got a little bigger but i think i'm mostly still the same

when i was younger i was scared of

who i was supposed to be

now i'm scared because i still have nightmares

because 

it is you i feel most alive with

& i want to throw my arms above my head

my hands shake, i get goosebumps, i am alive, & i love you

when we shared a sleeping bag & choked on campfire smoke

i wrote your name in cursive letters too many times & i think my pen is almost out of ink

i love you, i love you, i love you

but right now, i am here & i'm trying

i have had seventeen years of "firsts."

my first heartbreak was on a friday, & my head & eyes ached as i cried

but 

time has expired

and

to 

you 

i'm just another face in a crowd

all i ever will be & i'm ok with that

"everything hurts like hell, but i do it for you"

you realize that "tomorrow" is yesterday & that this is your life

seventeen matches

i have had seventeen years of "firsts."

my first heartbreak was on a friday, & my head & eyes ached as i cried

you 

were 

the person i 

could

call at 4 a.m.

but now 

i am one in seven billion.